wordless wednesday / photo wednesday

Isn't it funny when the you spend tons of money on circus tickets and the most amazing thing to the kids are the ladybugs outside?

Peanut Butter Pie

I usually just buy a premade graham cracker or cookie crust..'just cause I'm lazy.. We also melt some chocolate to drizzle on top, or hot fudge. We also crumble Reese's cups all over the top...nummy.

INGREDIENTS
1 1/4 cups chocolate cookie crumbs
1/4 cup white sugar
1/4 cup butter
1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softened
1 cup creamy peanut butter
1 cup white sugar
1 tablespoon unsalted butter, softened
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 cup heavy whipping cream

DIRECTIONS
Combine 1 1/4 cup cookie crumbs, 1/4 cup sugar, and 1/4 cup butter or margarine; press into a 9 inch pie plate. Bake at 375 degrees F (190 degrees C) for 10 minutes. Cool.
In a mixing bowl, beat cream cheese, peanut butter, sugar, butter, and vanilla until smooth. Whip the cream, and fold into the peanut butter mixture.
Gently spoon filing into crust. Garnish pie with chocolate or cookie crumbs if desired. Refrigerate.

uh oh...

Holy crap, holy crap, HOLY CRAP.... Christmas is one month away! How the hell did that happen? Do you know what that means?? That means two paychecks until christmas... crappity crap. And unfortunatly, this friday's check is already spent paying the electric, phone, cable, and most defintitly groceries. Oh yeah, and a mortgage payment! Dang it. We are all kinds of broke.

I just don't feel "christmassy" this year. I am so not into it. Which sucks, because we have a six year old daughter. I will try. But to be honest, even she doesn't seem that worked up yet. Everyone of my girfriends say they are broke this year and just don't feel the christmas spririt like they usually do. What's going on? Is it really just the economy?

I'll tell ya one thing though. This year, Christmas is going to be about us. I usually worry about giving gifts to everyone I know. I plan out months in advance what I will get everyone and really overthink it. I hate to say it, but I am only buying for immediate family. My friends and I have decided to do a Pollyanna for the kids. I will probably get my friends something small.. or we may decide not to exchange at all. Roslyn's teacher is getting a scarf I am making her. I am setting a monetary limit for everyone I buy for, which won't be much. I am not going to go nuts baking cookies and handing out cookie baskets to anyone and everyone. But I will take an afternoon and make some cookies with my daughter and my mom. I will not stress that I don't have enough to feed an army. They are for us and Santa.

My hubby should get a nice christmas bonus. I am hoping we can use that to pay for Roslyn's christmas presents and get each other a little something. Craig has a bike on layaway (he's a mountain biker and now getting into road racing) which we might be able to pay off. Personally, I think that should be his gift from me, but I know I will feel bad if he doesn't have any "gifts under the tree".

For me this year, all I want is peace of mind. I want to take that bonus and pay off our bills or at least get current on those suckers. I don't want to be a month behind on the electric or the cable. On christmas day, I'd like to have a few gifts for everyone under the tree, but most of all I want to have a sense of peace that we are ok financially. That's all I want. I am quitting my job finally, the same job I was suppossed to quit when Roslyn was born 6 years ago and it makes me nervous. On paper, we can afford it, easily. But Craig and I blow through money like water. Santa, could you fill my stocking with some common sense this year??

Up and Running Again...

So, because today has been a weird, hectic day..I've only got the energy for a fragmented post... here goes.

I am so very proud of myself for fixing this computer. It wouldn't even load up this morning.. nothing.. zip. Just black screen. I had to recover the whole system..reformat the hard drive.. blah,blah.. but I did it! IN YOUR FACE, GEEK SQUAD!

I am very, very obsessed with Kings of Leon I am crazy for that band. Why can't I ever just like a band or artist and leave it at that? I think I have stalker tendencies. (now aren't you scared that I read your blog?). But fear not, my stalkings tend to lead towards music artists. Poor David Gray and Jason Mraz never saw it coming...

I am quitting my job.. woo hoo! No more working at home, doing mindless data entry, day in and day out. My ass will be leaving the couch.. which hopefully will lead to me writing amazing blog posts about my new fascinating life!Stay tuned!

I am not ready for Christmas, not even close. Usually if I am not done shopping by now, I at least have a definite list of what I am getting everyone. I have no idea what to get Roslyn this year. Since when is it hard to shop for a 6 year old girl? Since I had a girl who does not like dolls, jonas bros, or hannah montanah, that's when!

I'm making a peanut butter pie to take to my mom's for thanksgiving, and I am already drooling thinking about it.

Yeah, this is a boring post... blah, blah blah.. done.

My computer crapped out.........

Just a little note to tell you all my laptop crapped out on me today.. I will be working on it today and have it back up to speed tonight..(I recovered the system and I am still working on the updates and stuff). Anyhoo... I will be back to regular programming tommorrow.. see ya then!

manic monday

Do you ever talk to yourself out loud? What do you talk about?
Oh, Hells Yeah.. all the time. It's usually a bunch of cursing.

What stresses you out?
Not being able to find something, when my house is a mess, money issues, and the storyline on Lost.

What are your secret talents?
Um...I can do a wicked handstand.. just ask my hubby.

Are you kidding me???

How is it possible that I am sick again?? Another cold.. the third in three months. Well to be technical about it, one bout of pneumonia and two colds in three months. Seriously, if someone sneezes in a ten mile radius, I get sick. Anyone have any tips of building up your immune system? I have been taking some expensive GNC Women's vitamins.. but they don't seem to be doing much. Should I be eating oranges? Taking herbal supplements?Do you have a secret weapon that helps you avoid colds??

#6 Eclipse

Read it, loved it and hated it at the same time... thats all I have to say about that. (I know some of you are still reading it.. so I will keep my comments to myself.)

GO TEAM EDWARD!

Aloha Friday

Today's Question:
What are you thankful for?

Well, lets see.. if we are talking about today, then I am happy that I found the dead squirrel before he defrosted. (see previous post)
If we are talking in general, then I am thankful for my hilarious husband and my too-cool daughter. Together we make the trifecta of awesome-ness.

edited:
crap, I screwed it up.. didn't realize I was supposed to leave a new question on here for you all to answer.. so....

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOU THIS HOLIDAY SEASON??

Ewww!! Put that down!!

Today, as usual, I took Roslyn to school, went to get coffee and came home to sit with my laptop and work. I am sitting on the couch when the dogs come barreling through the dog door. I thought they were all excited because of the snow and they were playing around and chasing each other. Daisy (the big airedale) had a toy in her mouth, I assumed she got it from their little toy basket. So I am sitting here typing and Daisy is throwing this toy up in the air and then, THUD! She would prance over to where it landed, swing it around in the air again and again, THUD! After a few minutes, it dawned on me that their toys don't make that kind of noise when they hit the ground....

So, I look at Daisy and she throws the toy once more into the air, but this time I get a good look at it. It's a dead, frozen, squirrel. Yeah. Good times. She is just pleased as punch with her new toy. I have to wait for her to throw it again (because I am not going to play tug-of war with a dead squirrel)and then race her to where it landed and pick it up with my hands covered in garbage bags. I take it back outside and bury it on the other side of the fence, where Daisy is now staring sadly at the mound of dirt, wondering why I'm so mean.

Song of the Day - Teddy Picker

Arctic Monkeys- song starts 30 secs. in

Love these guys!

Thousand Words Thursday

Eskimo Kisses, Roslyn and Me

SONG OF THE DAY - KINGS OF LEON

LOVE THIS BAND!! LATEST SONG: SEX ON FIRE (wondering how long it will take the radio stations to kill it dead by putting it on repeat)

Is this a sexy song or what?
lYRICS:
Lay where you're laying
Don't make a sound
I know they're watching
They're watching

All the commotion
the kiddie like play
Has people talking
Talking

You
Your sex is on fire

The dark of the alley
The break of the day
The head while I'm driving
I'm driving

Soft lips are open
Knuckles are pale
Feels like you're dying
You're dying

You
Your sex is on fire
Consumed
With what's to transpire

Hot as a fever
Rattling bones
I can just taste it
Taste it

If it's not forever
If it's just tonight
Oh it's still the greatest
The greatest
The greatest

You
Your sex is on fire
You
Your sex is on fire
Consumed
With what's to transpire
And You
Your sex is on fire
Consumed
With what's to transpire

ps. I will randomly be posting "songs of the day", because I am a music junkie and I need my fix..

Would You Rather Wednesday(short version)

You have to pick one.. and you can't say neither! explanations are welcome too!

now..WOULD YOU RATHER.....
have sex with:
Pee Wee Herman
or
Dog the Bounty Hunter?

WOULD YOU RATHER
have a perpetually running nose
or
uncontrollable farts?
I have given you a topic....now, discuss! And yes. I could be more immature, thanks for asking.

Wordless Wednesday - not so wordless

(dexter, last christmas)

Whatever Happened to Good 'Ol Anarchy and Angst?

I just heard a Vampire Weekend song on PBS kids. I don't know why, but that made me all kinds of angry. What ever happened to "f the establishment?" and not selling out? What's next, hmm? Korn on a Green Giant Commercial? White Stripes for Sherman Williams? Is Metallica gonna make a song for Nick Jr? Yeah, I know.. Vampire weekend is not heavy rock..but still. It's the principle here people! Rock musicians used to be hard core, man! Do you think Kurt Cobain would endorse Noggin? I think not, sir, I think not!

I know what you're thinking... what was I doing watching PBS Kids at 1:30 in the afternoon when my daughter is in school all day? well, um... that's just how I roll.

Manic Monday

Do you believe people are basically good? I THINK WE ARE ALL BORN WITH A CONSCIENCE, SOME OF US CHOOSE TO LISTEN TO IT AND OTHERS DON'T. I THINK WE ARE ALL BORN WITH THE ABILITY TO BE GOOD AND KIND AND EVERYDAY WE MAKE THE CHOICE WHETHER OR NOT TO BEHAVE THAT WAY.

If you could change the custom of shaking hands, what would you replace it with?
OH, THAT'S AN EASY ONE... HIGH FIVES, BABY! I AM ALWAYS HIGH FIVIN' MY HUBBY, WHO JUST SHAKES HIS HEAD AND GIVES ME A LITTLE SLAP ON THE HAND. I WANT SOME JUMP IN THE AIR, HAND SLAPPING DOUBLE HIGH FIVES, WITH THE THE TURN AROUND AND THE "LOW FIVE".

What is something that you enjoy that is a chore for most other people? I WANT TO SAY READING, BUT THERE ARE PLENTY OF PEOPLE WHO ENJOY THAT. HMMM.. I LIKE WALKING. THAT'S ALL I CAN THINK OF. I GUESS MOST WOMEN WOULD SAY CLEANING, BUT NOT ME, I EFFING HATE IT.

Another Twilight Post...

Currently reading Eclipse and got so mad last night, I threw the book.

I have just a few questions for you Bella...(don't worry, no spoilers)

1. Why are you such a raging idiot??

2. Are you ever happy?

3. What happens when you get your period?


thanks, that will be all.

Unconscious Mutterings

WANNA JOIN IN?

I say ... and you think ... ?

Please stop :: EATING THE TRASH
Move over :: YOU FREAKIN' PUG!
Sweet as :: BEAR MEAT
Bet :: YOUR SWEET LOVIN' ASS
Mad about :: PLAID
It’s over :: GET OVER IT
Intend to :: BE NORMAL
Blame :: YOU
Jefferson :: WEEZY
Heartless :: BASTARD

You will be singing this all day.....

remember that?? Bring back the Muppet show!

#5 New Moon - 2nd Twilight Book.

Ok, I am not going to put a plot description on here, because I know some of you are reading the first book now or just started this one. I will just say a few things.
1. I loved it, but not as much as the first.
2. I think it was the fact that a certain character was missing for the first half of the book.
3. I kinda wanted to kick Bella at the end. Really, is she ever just happy? Damn! Emo, much?

That said, it was a good book. Nice suspense, lots of drama, and of course, vampires. I bought Eclipse yesterday and I am a few chapters in. Usually, I don't enjoy "series" books. I get sick of the characters too quick. But Twilight is keeping my attention so far! Can't wait for the movie next week.

Speaking of the movie, I wasn't that thrilled at first with the choice of who would play Edward. But Robert Pattison is growing on me, what do you think? I think Meyer just had Edward so hyped up to be so "beautiful" that no one would measure up.

One more thing, off topic, the numbers on these posts is just my way of keeping track of how many books I am read. I'm curious as to how many I actually read a year. Yeah, I'm dorky like that.

Favorite Pick Up Lines

Lets make a list of the funniest pick-up lines you've ever heard... here are a few to get ya started!

Can I borrow a quarter? I want to call my mom and tell her I just met the girl of my dreams.

All those curves, and me with no brakes.

I can't find my puppy, can you help me find him? I think he went into this cheap motel room.

Do you believe in love at first sight or do you want me to walk by again?

Come on, ladies.. you know you've heard some!

Thousand Words Thursday

Girl Scout Halloween party. They did
"mummy wraps"


Aint't no party like a girl scout party, cause a girl scout party don't stop!

Wordless Wednesday

Why? Because Dogs in Goggles are funny.

Just ask Dexter.

BFF'S, 2nd GENERATION

This is Roslyn(LEFT) and her best friend, Dorothy, last year at a fair. They were pretty much best friends from birth. Her mom and I became best friends in Kindergarten, so these two didn't have much of a choice to be friends or not. They love each other so much and are attached at the hip. I love the fact that she already has that bond with someone. I can see them growing into teens together and beyond. Aren't they cute?

PURSE SHOPPING - ETSY RECOMMENDATIONS?

I am looking to get a new purse and I want to go the etsy route. Anyone have a favorite etsy store they can recommend? There are so many to choose from..my head is spinning. I am looking for under 50 bucks or so. I know, I'm cheap.

oh, and ps... it has to be big enough to fit a book in.

Blah, blah, blah

This is my morning coffee today...



I actually went out to the store this morning and bought whipped cream. I don't know, I had a weird craving. I've got delicious dark roast coffee mixed with that super yummy coconut creamer that CoffeMate makes. And please, don't forget the awesome huge Halloween straw which keeps me from getting whipped cream nose. You don't waste nummy-ness like that.

So, whats on the agenda today you ask? Um, same as usual. For those of you who don't know me that well, I work at home. I do data entry work for a local dairy. I used to work in the office full time before my daughter was born. I was their bookkeeper. I am sure I could go back to the office full time if I wanted, but well, I don't wanna. I don't like working from home, its boring and lonely, but I also want the flexibility of staying home when my kid needs me. To be perfectly honest, I wish I could quit and go back to school. I feel wasted at home. It's truly brainless work and I sit here and watch tv while I do it. (I know, to some people that sounds ideal, but really, do it for 5 years and see how bored you are). I would love to go back to school and study English or history. Or Psychology. I would love to get my bachelors in one of those and then go for my masters in Library Science. But I'm scared! I don't wanna put the money out either.(which we don't have, by the way.) Besides, would I be the weird older lady in class that no one wants to partner with??

Anyway, this is a weird post. No real theme, no constant stream of thought, but that's how I am today. Weird.

And before you ask, no I don't know how many WW points that coffee is, and I don't care!! Screw you, Weight Watchers!!

#4 Choke by Chuck Palahniuk

Just finished this one tonight, sitting in the freezing car while Ros was in her Girl Scouts meeting. (yeah, I know I should have went in and helped.. but I only had a few chapters left, dang it!)

I gotta say, Palahnuik never fails to deliver. His books are weird and dark and just plain... well, weird. Choke served up the same strange mix of sex,depression and insanity that his previous novels did. The ending was a complete shocker, as usual. You find yourself flipping back through the book looking for clues that should have jumped out at you, but didn't.

This isn't my favorite Chuck Palahnuik novel, but it's up there. Don't go rushing to get this book if you are easily offened by bad language and raunchy sex scenes, because they are a-plenty in this book. If you are looking for a really weird, dark, brooding and shocking book with a killer twist at the end.. well, then.. go right ahead.

Manic Monday

Wanna join in? go here manic monday


What was the first thing you thought when you looked at yourself in the mirror today?
HOLY CHRIST... IS THAT DRIED DROOL? WHY IS MY ONE EYE SO SWOLLEN? DID A SMALL BIRD NEST IN MY HAIR?

Do you have a recurring nightmare? If so, explain.
I CONSTANTLY HAVE THE "HIGH SCHOOL" DREAM. I AM IN CLASS AND ITS THE END OF THE YEAR. I THEN REALIZE THAT THERE WAS AN ENGLISH CLASS THAT I SKIPPED EVERYDAY AND I NEED IT TO GRADUATE. IT IS ALWAYS ENGLISH CLASS. I ALSO HAVE THE "CAN'T REMEMBER MY LOCKER COMBINATION" DREAM.

List three foods you can’t stand: LIVERWURST (I'M GAGGING THINKING ABOUT IT), LIMA BEANS AND COTTAGE CHEESE.. EWWW

Whatcha Readin' There??

So, I'm just curious if anyone has read anything good lately. Right now I've got two books going.


Choke by Chuck Palahniuk

and New Moon by Stephanie Meyer



Both are awesome, but I'm looking for my next read! Any suggestions? I plan on continuing the Twilight series.. but I usually read two or three books at a time.. so suggestions are needed!

#3 Twilight

Yeah, I know. Everybody and their mom has read this. I have read it twice. I just re-read to prepare for the movie (yeah, I'm nerdy like that.) I loved it. I gotta admit I was initially put off by the whole vampire idea, but the romantic aspect drew me in. I'm a sucker for a love story. (hee hee. get it? sucker? as in blood-sucker? as in vampire? whew.. I'm a one witty lady.) Anyhoo.. I won't bother you with a review. I'm sure you've read tons. I will just say, I loved it. I am now reading New Moon and am about halfway through. Can't wait for the movie!

Have you read it? what did you think? Are you gonna see the movie?

thousand words thursday

Someone was mean to her.......

and now, I'm gonna have to kill them.

Abc's of Me... Stolen From Jiggety Jigg

A is for age: its a shame, but I totally had to count backwards for this.. 31.. urgh

B is for burger of choice: Bacon, cheese, pickles, lettuce, no onions, ketchup and mustard

C is for the car I drive: Oh, you so don't want to know. We'll just call it the "silver bullet" or the "gray ghost". Let's just say, it's a sweet ass ride.

D is for your dog's name: Dexter(pug) and Daisy (giant airedale)

E is for essential item you use every day: my laptop!! It's scary how attached I am.

F is for favorite TV show at the moment: 30 rock! I have a weird thing for Tina Fey, I'm kind of her stalker.

G is for favorite game: Hide the Salami ... mwww aaaa haaaa... (just seeing if you're paying attention to this awesome meme)

H is for home state: Jersey

I is for instruments you play: The skin flute... man, that is gross.. lol.. seriosly, I play no instruments.. I am not musically inclined. (But I am inclined to make inappropriate jokes.)

J is for favorite juice: eww.. nobody likes juice, unless it has liquor in it.

K is for whose bum you'd like to kick: My own, into gear

L is for last restaurant at which you ate: mcdonalds.. I'm fancy like that

M is for your favorite Muppet: Beaker all the way baby!! Meep Meep!

N is for number of piercings: 2

O is for overnight hospital stays: When I had my daughter, and it did not go well. I don't like to be confined. I wanted out!

P is for people you were with today: Um, do dogs count? I'm lonely.

Q is for what you do with your quiet time: Read!

R is for biggest regret: I shouldn't have killed that hobo.....

S is for status: Married!

T is for time you woke up today: I think it was about 6 or so.

U is for what you consider unique about yourself: I love awkward moments. There is nothing funnier to me that those moments when you can hear "crickets"

V is for vegetable you love: wtf kind of question is that to ask a girl on a diet? I hate them all, dammit!

W is for worst habit: killing hobos.

X is for x-rays you've had: in september I had chest x-rays because I had pneumonia.

Y is for yummy food you ate today: Haven't eaten yet, but I am not looking forward to it..

Z is for zodiac: Leo..... rawr!

Weight Watchers Can Suck It!

Ok, so it's official. I freakin' hate Weight Watchers. The whole constantly logging in to input points is aggravating. And trying to calculate the points is annoying. Wouldn't it be easier to just count calories? I don't know. I am seriosly peeved with it.

I am thinking of the whole "low carb" thing. Anyone tried it? Before I had my daughter I lost about 30 pounds doing that. Then I got pregnant, and all I could keep in my stomach was potatoes, so that went out the window. I did the carbohydrate addicts diet which allowed one meal with carbs, even dessert. Weird, but it worked.

Anyway, I am not quiting Weight Watchers yet, but I am researching other venues.Any suggestions? I can hear you now "hey kel? how about this crazy idea? eat less and exersize? "
That might not be such a bad idea...smart ass.

Mario and My Man

Roslyn was Super Mario for Halloween. And my hubby was his usual adorable self.

Should I buy a Kindle??

I love to read. I have boxes of books in my basement. I have a book in my bag, by my bed and in my car at all times. I listen to audiobooks when I am working. I buy Pages magazine for Christ's sake.

My name is Kel and I am, gulp, a bookaholic. A story junkie, if you will.

So, of course when the kindle came out I was mad! This is the end of real books!! Bookstores will go out of business! What about the feel of a book in your hands, people? What about the independent bookstore owner? Won't you miss turning pages and sticking paperbacks in your back pockets? What about those glorious bookshelves and (gasp!) what about the libraries??

But.. um, I've kinda changed my mind. Someone told me that if you get a simple memory chip, it can hold like a thousand books. And you can download stuff instantly. The kindle store is on the device itself. That could be a bad thing and a good thing. But I am always reading about three books at once, it would be nice to have them all in one spot. I am always out somewhere when I hear about a book I want to read.. I could just whip it out and download it. Right there! How amazing is that? But then again, would I really be able to stick that thing in my purse? And what about bathtub reading?? I am a sucker for a bubble bath and a good book. Can you imagine the expletives I would use if that thing hit the water??

I will leave you with three final questions.. Are Kindles and E-reader the Anti-christ for real books? Should I get one? and finally, will you buy me one?

ps. vote in my poll on the right

This is gonna be tough for me...

oh boy.. I did something dumb today. I signed up for weight watchers. Crap. Now, I gotta commit. Because that crap is expensive..and I don't like to waste money. I've got lose weight, I'm just gross right now. 30 pounds would be mindblowing. Another 10 would totally rock the house. I want to say more than that.. but it's not smart for me to do that.


You see, here is my problem though. I don't love being a tub-a-lard.. but I am kind of scared to lose weight. I used to be way underweight. The counselors in school used to "chat" with me about my "eating disorder" alot. My parents were called, I'd tell my mom I was eating and I was fine. Then, I would pass out in class again, and it would start all over. I would go all day without eating. Then in the evening I would go out with my boyfriend and then, when he dropped me off at night, I would hit the bathroom and puke it all up.I don't think he had any clue.. we were together for 3 years and he never questioned why I went to the bathroom as soon as we were done eating. I am about 5'10 and there was a point where I was about 100 pounds. I liked that number, for some reason. I never really told anyone about it. I didn't really think I had an eating disorder, but I guess I did. I know I did, actually. By the time I met Craig, my hubby, I was about 115 or so and I hated it. But he made me feel great. He made me happy and I stopped purging. We went to dinner and movies and parties and I was too distracted to care. I didn't binge at night anymore and get sick for an hour. We got fat together, Hubby and I. Fat and Happy. Now, I'm fat and not so happy. Kinda miserable, actually.

So, I am trying weightwatchers online and I am a little nervous. I am couting points, and I get 35 per day. plus 30 or so extra for splurges. Well, guess how many points I used today? freaking 44... dammit. Hubby wanted to go to breakfast, and then we got coffees at starbucks and then there were some cupcakes left from the Halloween party... blah, blah, blah. And now, I am tempted to do something about those extra points I ate.I haven't made myself sick in years and it's gross. But I'm tempted. I hate myself for even thinking it. But it's in the back of my mind. I am fine when I don't think about food, just eat it. Don't look at calories and don't get on the scale. But when I have to think about it, I get obssessed. That's probably the whole reason I let myself get this way.. It's better to not think about it.

So, here I go. This is gonna be an adventure, to say the least. But I think if I am honest with myself and the people around me, I will be ok. I've got to try.